Today marks 17 years without any friends. Shunned by everyone and probably so maladjusted by now that I repel people whenever I try to make new ones.
Its like...screaming for someone to hear you and everyone just walks by, not even turning their head.
I'm a complete introvert but that has never meant that I hate people or want to be a recluse my entire life. I would enjoy a small circle of friends to experience life with. But some people just dont get to have that I guess. I dont get to be happy.
You know I finally tried getting therapy recently. Got told to touch grass and talk to friends, and that I did not require their services. Rejected again at every point in my life.
Hard to talk