RevenueGold

https://youtu.be/vXgh8D5HRsg?si=bSwnm3dGIF2dwH94

I used to never watch the news. It was too painful to watch, too ugly. Now, it's all I want to do- solely because it doesn't remind me at all of you.

The smallest crack, in just the right spot, and the whole thing comes undone.

Only momentarily.

My lungs shake and I struggle to catch mt breath.

Only momentarily.

I rub my temples, caress the bridge of my nose in a vain attempt to calm the storm building beneath the surface.

Smile. Smile. Smile. Oh God, just smile. Please. Please, don't break apart. Fuck. I can't do this. Can I go back? Please, God, let me go back.

A deep breath... sniffled through my nose. Fuck. Not this song...

Crack.

Smile... just smile. Please, don't let anyone else see it's fake.