ScriptorMalum

😭 just wanted to speak into the void.

I don't know why you suggested going our separate ways after getting what you want.

Because you sold me a pretty lovely idea, and I didn't know how much I missed it until you brought it back.

When you start feeling like you actually deserve the good things about love that you want, you won't be so anxious or afraid, and won't manipulate people because you don't trust what you can bring to the table.

Sir, we were at the table. We played on that table. And you kept asking if the table was real while I was at the table with you. I was with you 😭

Who knows what life will be life when Terrifier 4 comes out. No one knows the future. 🥺

I used to think I

I'm working late, however

It would be great to watch Terrifier and Terrifier 2, timing it to end at midnight. Clock flips over to Nov 1st, start Terrifier 3.

So the meal plan for a Halloween to Xmas party would be the body part charcuterie for movie 1, cloudy "bleach and salt" cocktails for movie 2, then Christmas cookies for movie 3.

Someone live the dream for me this year 🤡

Maybe next year will be my year to host one 🔪

Meta social media:

I have no need for these services, and honestly, after my breakup, I don't want anything to do with being able to find or be found. The only reason I still have these is one coworker who sends me stuff all the time. Which I like, and is fine.

Should I delete fb/insta/messenger, wait the 30 days and start fresh? (Or just let it go entirely)

Or

Should I go into each account, clean out the posts, photos, and contacts, and change all my settings?

If I do the 30 day full delete, I'll lose my block list.

The only reason I have any of these services still is just for the one person sharing things. One other friend messages me on there, and my only other friend doesn't.

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You're not stopping anything. You're making the r/ an Applebees.

A little known Witch-tok influencer marries in the early days of the pandemic and her former long term avoidant situationship comes to town to take her back.

It's been 8 mins no contact (3 mos, then "I don't want to" and hard block since), and I'm trying to get on the other side of this.

I'm working on my issues, find out things about myself. Which is great.

But the dreams of them don't stop. No bad, or weird, they're just there with me, like we're together. I have no reason for these dreams to be coming up.

Does anyone else go through this phase?

I actually don't mind ads. It gives me time to get up and move, do little crap, stay busy, or absorb what I've just seen. Plus, it's like how mindless TV used to be.

Don't tell the corporations tho, the ads are getting out of hand, anymore of them and it will just be ad streaming...ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ

I love living alone, turning off all the lights, and watching scary movies. If I want to turn up the creep out factor, I'll watch it on my phone in bed through earbuds under my covers. (⁠✿⁠ ⁠♡⁠‿⁠♡⁠)

Not only do I get to see what I want to see (and don't have to listen to complaining or answer questions even though they'll be revealed in the movie), it's quiet... No one is (whiney voice) "too scared" or "too freaked out."

I just watched Longlegs. WTF... Loved it, creepy as hell, W...T...F... lolol

Incantation was a legit "it's too dark in this room" scary!

Who's with me???

I'm 6 mos in this new ground floor apt in an old building. And it's MO, so it's all old buildings. Spiders and brown recluse are not unfamiliar, and I've controlled them in the living room.

This morning I finished making my bed, I went to the closet to get my clothes and there on my covers was a leggy b, brown recluse.

Now, I don't think I have a bite. My pets were in bed with me, they're fine.

My bed is not up against a wall, there's no clutter underneath. I do have a bed skirt. I've sprayed cedar peppermint spray, used the diatomaceous food grade earth around the bed legs, it's already everywhere else. I've sealed gaps that I can find in the baseboards. Tonight after work I'm strippi

I've lost a lot of people in my life, and most nights I dream they're either alive or back and I'm living a life like it's another reality. Its all vivid and real and then I wake up to being alone. This morning, if I had a pEwPeW, I would have ate it for breakfast.

I didn't and I won't, so this isn't a report me situation. But I'm super ready for this part of what I'm assuming is the grieving process to process itself already so I can move on.

This can't be the rest of my life, constantly being shown what could have been...

I don't have anyone to vent this with. I tried with one friend, but theyre on a happy path and didn't really listen. The idea of getting therapy sounds great. If l

There are many emotional moments, but the beginning of the episode when everyone is cheering on 120's team, it moves me to tears.

I feel like this was the director/writer showing the best in people when they are all on the same side. Everyone forgot the money, and wanted each other to win. They were all rooting for everyone to live.

I just had a brown recluse run across my ankle and out my pant leg. As I'm laying down extra anti bug powder, another huge crunchy black spider comes running out.

It's not that I can't handle it myself. It's that I'm very aware that co-regulation was extremely helpful in coming down from a "omfg spiders were on me" meltdown.

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