Sleepcel

Just think about it logically hits pipe

Let's assume the best case scenario. You know, the one that's never gonna happen. You somehow score a girl you like. Not only that, but she wants to stay with you for longer.

What does it change? You feel loved, I guess. It's probably a great feeling that someone is there for you, that you have someone you can talk with. Sex is probably okay. None of us experienced any of this, so let's assume all of that is great and matters. I'm not really convinced, but whatever.

What does it not change? It doesn't change anything else, because you're still ugly. You will always feel inferior because you know you are the ugliest person in your area. And whichev

So, long story short, ever since I hit puberty I've realized I'm ugly as fuck. Girls despised me for no reason, standard truecel shit. I was aware of the core of blackpill pretty much since I saw how differently I was treated by female peers, even thought my social skills were always good and I had many male friends, and was invited pretty much to every party males were organizing back in HS. Again, pretty much norm.

The thing is after I spent too much time on this sub I have that subconscious voice in my head 'bluepilling' me lately. Walking near the mirror? Lookin' good! Dressing up? Damn, water fasting paid off! Taking a shower? It's not exacly small, you know? This never happened

I have weird issue when my comments dissapear. Usually it's replies to someone else's subthread. I don't know for how long this has been going on, I've spent excessive time with you frens today and I've noticed just now.

Funny thing is it's never offensive shit, just random facts from my life I'm okay to share, basics math and chemistry (I wish I was joking), links, or comments responding to discussion with friendly manner.

Just want to know if it's quarantine being quarantine, or did I got cursed by le gods of leddit for never giving platinum to Bouman threads and I should create new acc.