Slipslime

I'm a pretty shitty engineer, so I'm starting to doubt I'll be able to find great success in this career, wondering what else I could do and still have an okay quality of life.

It's been a little over 2 years since I graduated and I'm on my second job, and all my confidence and morale is completely gone. I'm just making a little machine that assembles electrical components, and every day I want to blow my head off. It is no exaggeration that every single thing I've done has gone wrong.

They say you shouldn't make the same mistake twice, well how about many different mistakes one after another? I have to own so much of the process here, from design to manufacturing to assembly, and on my c

I want to be able to draw a lot of different things, so ideally I would do a variety of quick sketches every day to improve in all those areas at once. Unfortunately this has never happened consistently. The problem is, I spend way too long on a single drawing because I don't really know how to make it look good without detailing it heavily. My basic sketches are way too rough and I use the details to help locate myself on the image. Yet I see people seemingly scribble for a few minutes and they've already captured the essence of their reference. What should I work on to do faster, higher quality sketches? Is this even the right approach for what I want to do?

I want to be able to draw people, which naturally includes their faces, but they're so incredibly hard to get right. All the lines need to be in exactly the right position or else it looks completely fucked and it really stresses me out and prevents me from practicing. Even if the face looks acceptable it definitely isn't the same expression or person that I used as my reference. I can barely draw two faces every few days because the process is so unpleasant. Drawing a face feels like being constipated, I take like half an hour. They'll sometimes look okay when I'm done though. Sometimes. How do I learn to stop wanting to cut my hand off every time I draw a face? I know I can't get better

People say that when you move to a new place it can be hard to get to sleep, but it was pretty easy for me. Didn't need earplugs and was even able to sleep on the floor before I got my furniture. Things have only been growing worse over time with incresaingly frequent insomnia that seems totally random in what will happen. Some nights I get to bed easily and wake up 3-4 hours later unable to get back to sleep, and some nights I'll take hours to finally fall asleep.

I take 10 g of melatonin about 1.5 hours before bed and it doesn't seem to make any meaningful difference. It does get really warm in my apartment, about 75 degrees or more, but like I said before I was able to sleep fine at the

In my current game as the USA, the Whigs just kill themselves on June 8, 1848 when the Constitutional Union Party shows up. The industrialists leave to join it, and the Whigs are suddenly the farmers in the opposition. Everyone who was getting along fine with the industrialists now wants to get out, leaving my government at 0 legitimacy. At least wait until the election is over to fuck me so I can fix this nonsense with the free government reform. No leaders died, the script just says the parties change on that date so they do. This needs to be improved.

Nowadays there are many chateaux in France that are museums/tourist attractions like Chateau de Chambord and Chateau de Chenonceau, but I can't imagine the people were enthusiastic about preserving the former homes of their enemy in the wake of the revolution. What happened to them? Were they mostly just abandoned and left to rot or did new residents move in? I imagine it's a combination of both but I would like to know more.

I might have graduated, but I got no internships, no relevant experience, and barely any projects to talk about. With the resume I have right now, I am completely unemployable, and I just wasted years of my life and thousands of dollars for nothing.

The only way I can think of to meaningfully bolster my resume is to start doing as many projects as I can. However, with how little I accomplished during college I fear those years will still haunt me and prevent me from getting a job.

I think backdating the projects I'm doing now would be a good way to fix this, however, my existing, dogshit resume is already out there attached to my name on linkedin and indeed. My concern is that if I backdat