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I pray alone in blurry room, dark and blue with fright,

Dreary scene of hopeless teen, still clinging to a light,

Mom and Father downstairs now, banging through the house,

Father told me “Sit right there, silent as a mouse”,

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Mommy fought a losing game her hope was all too blinding,

To see a man whose heart and mind were constantly unwinding,

Hope for something different for a void without a soul,

Nothing ever changed and no one really had control,

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The banging goes away and I’m alone with fading stars,

I look outside my window and see Father’s by the car,

The trunk is gaping open something big and black’s inside,

I call out for my mom wanting someone by

Spending time in lonesome makes you see what matters most,

And the outside world of yesteryear has grown so very cold,

People dying everyday, hundreds more and more,

I realize now more that ever that the future isn't sure,

Motivation to not wait till tomorrow is my priority,

It's hard to put this into words but there's no greater guarantee,

That I can't wait any longer to tell you what's been on my heart,

Every time that we're together, I'm happier than when we're apart,

I don't know why this is but I've been bettering myself,

Making better choices, pushing my bad habits off the shelf,

Of my mind that's cluttered enough with the thought of me and you,

You just won't leave my head