VolatileMoon

I wish I could see you in person and look at your face again, tell you how fucked up I was and hug you once more. I wish I could call you and tell you in my voice what I actually want to say instead of this numb and emotionless texting. Or just lashing out because I can't handle my own self right now. I miss my best friend. But that's my fault and I can't forgive myself. Not for this.

When I finally stare myself in the mirror, truly, and saw and said the things I've done, I can't get past it. I can't handle this nightmare that I created. And it cycles and screams in my head. I want it to stop. It's my own guilt scratching at the door and pulling me down, and I want to let it. I want to drow

Struggling to get food and some other essentials. If anyone can help out, I'd appreciate it so much.

I lost my job a few months ago and it's been really difficult making ends meet while I'm waiting to get into treatment. I wasn't anticipating being home for this long and have myself and not car to take care of. I ran out of money really quickly and need food for myself and Shadow (my cat), my phone bill is coming up and need to keep it on in case of treatment calling and having contact with the outside world. I know quarantine has been hard for everyone but any help would go a long way. Thank you

Simple as that. I miss everything about you. I miss your voice, your cackly laugh, your smile, your eyes, your perfume/lotion, you holding me and holding you close. I feel lost without you. I feel empty. And you'll probably never speak to me again. And I'll just go on missing you more. I won't forget. I never could.