The last time i was drunk, like drunk drunk was in april. My wife quit drinking and nothing ever made me feel like such a failure than waking up to the piss and smashed shit everywhere at 5am having only gone to sleep 2 hours earlier. The bit that really sucked was knowing that i did all that alone. The judgement and realisation that she quit because that's what she was doing too, suddenly becoming nothing more than an absolute degenerate in her eyes.
Shit was fucking embarrassing, waking up in a police cell, waking up to broken things, waking up in the car, waking up in my own piss, the worst bit of all of that was waking up at all.
Shakes, depression, hallucinations, existantal thought