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So I'm currently 17 AFAB and since about the age of 8 I've been questioning my gender, I changed my name 3 years ago to Eli which I'm very happy with. Since that point I've mostly identified as non-binary and I've been going by they/them pronouns and even though these things have made me feel more comfortable with myself, there's a part of me that says that I'm not being authentic and I'm questioning if I am non-binary or not because I've always been uncomfortable being classed as a woman and I dont like the feel of being called a man but I also don't feel like I'm exactly non-binary.

Has anyone else had this experience? I've been aware of the term agender before but I'm not sure if I full

Obligatory on mobile, so sorry for any formatting issues. I'm going to give some background info, if you're not interested in that feel free to skip the next paragraph.

So as of late I've made friends through a game that I play and we've become close and play other games together. One of them made a server and anybody can add anyone else that they want, and one guy added French Guy. For reference, I had only spoken to French Guy (FG) one time before this and nothing out of the ordinary happened. If I'm being honest I loved his accent, it was very pleasing to hear and he offered to enhance my French and I was happy to help him with his English.

One slight important piece of info is that I'm