abusenymph

I’m so tired of existence, it’s dull and meaningless and painful. I only mess up everything and I’m a burden. I don’t even deserve to be breathing today.

the time i lost my virginity was in june/ just before my birthday. I figured i should get fucked like a slut before i turn 19. So i met up with my (now then) boyfriend. I was really drunk off a full bottle of red wine and half a bottle of vodka. I met him and it took about 10 minutes at his place til i was kicking him against furniture and begging him to fuck me like a whore. He didn’t listen but instead brought me into the shower to help me clean up because i was spitting on him. I laid on my back and started fingering myself in the shower and telling him to fuck me. He didn’t so i started deepthroating his dick instead. Then he pushed me on the bed and fucked me violently. He wanted to res