arson-frog

i just got out of a really weird relationship thing three weeks ago and i just don’t get it.

why would he choose them over me? i was giving him everything and he told me that he was so excited about this. he told me that he wanted me and that he loved the way our bodies fit together. he told me i was one of the prettiest people he’s ever seen in his life. he told me that he wanted to be my boyfriend. he told me so many things and i wanted him so bad. he told our coworkers that it was the best first date he’s ever been on. i thought about him all the time and i think about him all the time. i don’t think i was in love but i was really close.

so why would he choose them over me? when he got

It wasn’t so mortifying with you.

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I was in your mouth like wine &

You were in mine like cherry coke

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When we kissed it felt like I was on a patio

Where I could just barely feel the air on my skin and

There’s a scent in the air that I can only name summer

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You once said

About sex

About us (I secretly hope)

That there is something profoundly sad about it

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I spilled my kalimotxo on the patio two nights ago & then I stepped in it trying to

Clean it up.

& then last night my roommate did the same thing

& so did I, I got my feet sticky.

The curse of the Kalimotxo.

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When I hold the taste of us in my mouth,

I balance the mason jar in my hand &

I drop