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Salam, new revert here. I have so much I’m learning everyday.

I’m going to my first jumu’ah tomorrow, yay! I’ve found myself in a bit of a contradiction though.

I wear makeup daily, I am prone to hormonal acne and makeup helps me feel more confident. I don’t know if I’ll be praying or observing tomorrow (as I don’t know the prayers yet) but I know if I pray I’ll need to make wudu.

How do people in my situation, wanting to wear makeup, but also wanting to pray, get through it? I guess just bite the bullet and show up as Allah intended?

When it comes to people (myself for example) who have a medical condition requiring them to consume LOTS of liquids. How does that change wudu? Sometimes w

Never been a beer person, but I discovered I’m a huge fan of wheat based types. What can I buy in store and take home thats tasty?

Recently changed jobs and havent been around on time to adjust my geckos lights at night.
What brand makes the most reliable and easy to use lighting timer?

How exactly could I go about doing this in a legal way, or even a (slightly less) legal way? I’ve got a friend in France who would love to try twisted teas, and they would like to send me french wines in return. How could I go about shipping some tweas them? Thanks 🤍

I want to be a crow bro so bad but I can never seem to find them 😭 I can’t keep walking around parks aimlessly while holding a bag of bread lol. Thanks!

Through my work I’ve met a gentleman and we’ve been getting along beautifully. To help me get out of my bad situation, he’s offered to help me get into my own place, and pay for the rent for 6 months. Should I be concerned about financial abuse? Is there anything I need to worry about? Or should I go for it? I want out of my unhappy environment but I’m scared of putting myself into another bad situation.

Thanks in advance everyone <3

For background (I’ll try to make it quick) (21F havent had contact with him in 5 years)
He abused my mother severely, my dear sweet stepmother, (and all other women he’s been with) sexually assaulted my older sisters (not his blood) raped his son (my younger brother, his own blood)…
Do I bother in forgiving him?
Truthfully I have always been the light of his life. I’m his first child afterall. He never abused me personally. (that I remember) And as a daughter who always desperately wished for a father, I want to forgive him for the terror he has caused. But the pain of what he’s done to the people I love most is so hard to love. He has severe trauma, I won’t get into it for t