gravity_bender7

I used to have a friend group and i used to be able to get a womans attention. Now my life is pathetic. Ive spent the last 3 years working for a soul crushing bank and the last year finishing a CS degree. I wake up alone i go to bed alone. No one calls, texts, or reaches out. 5 years of isolation without hearing from anyone messed me up.

The last 2 years ive been suicidal putting my pistol to my head ejecting the round and then pulling the trigger to get used to the feeling of putting a loaded weapon to my head.

im a souless husk of a human who cant connect to people any more. I dont do well in social environments, people think im autistic. I miss social cues and dont understand people.