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Everything was so sudden in a month time. I can’t grasp that they’re both gone. My mom… my anchor. The one person that won’t turn me away no matter what. There’s no love like that and I’ll never get to experience it again.

I hang on to her last voicemail before she couldn’t speak anymore. Every time I close my eyes I see memories. Good and bad.

My heart hurts. This pain that I’ve felt before… when my father died in 2001. It’s crazy cause he passed away May 7.

My birthday is on May 11. He passed May 7. My sister’s birthday is on November 26. My mom passed November 23. Now my uncle passed on my sister’s birthday.

Birthdays and holidays are never going to be the same for both of us. Our m

This is our last family photo with our dad. My sister and myself with our parents on Christmas 2000. My father passed in 2001. My mother was a tough one to handle two kids alone during that time. As well as care take for my grandma and working a full time job. She passed this last Saturday the 23rd.

Thank you.

This is our last family photo with our dad. My sister and myself with our parents on Christmas 2000. My father passed in 2001. My mother was a tough one to handle two kids alone during that time. As well as care take for my grandma and working a full time job. She passed this last Saturday the 23rd.

Thank you.

Kinda grossed out but kinda glad I got to experience it since I keep seeing photos and videos of this stuff popping up randomly on my social media.

So I pretty much ruined my life. I lived off credit cards for a bit did gig jobs but floated in life.. I’m almost 40 and I’m tired of it.

I got a job at an Amazon warehouse but it’s reduced hours. I swear nothing is hiring cause I’ve been applying and either get denied or ghosted.

My shift is Wed-Fri 10:50pm-6:00am. I get paid $21.25. I plan to see if I become blue badge which is not seasonal cause I like what I’m doing. It’s getting me active and when I started I was 245 Lbs and now I’m at 190 Lbs. Might be cause of depression as well lol.

I don’t pay rent since I lost my apartment. Glad it didn’t go to evictions. I live on a couch rent free right now (i am grateful to have a roof over m

The pros is I would be full time and get 40 hours compared to my seasonal position which is 10:50am-6:00pm but only Wednesday - Friday.

I just want to be perm honestly. I’m saving for a car which would allow me to pick up more shifts. So far I only pick up shifts that are overnight since that’s when I have access to a vehicle.

Do I just say f-it and go negative upt? I only work 3 days reduced hours shift or something. I’m still kinda new.

Got 5 hours 29 minutes of PTO and 7 hours 12 minutes of UPT. I work tonight and tomorrow but I just can’t do it. I went in yesterday and just couldn’t focus. I was lucky to vto so I was there for 30 minutes. I went into my car and just started crying. It hurts man. 5 years…

I’m still sad and I have my shift in a few hours. Idk I want to just say thug it out but my soul just wants to cry it out. Dude by the way.

Life has just been so tough lately.

Hello,

I’ve been a lazy slob for awhile. Recently joined a nearby DS. My apartment has a treadmill, bike and some dumbbell weights. Wondering which workouts I should do to keep my body up to par.

I got compression socks which help my flat feet but being heavy is another thing. I also got insoles. I figured I’d walk incline at least 5 miles since that’s about average I do daily.