immolatea

Eight years ago I spent a little over a year in captivity. Whenever I share this with people I usually get what feels like an overreaction (they’re so shocked and horrified) and the first question I get is ‘who kidnapped you’. Then once I tell them that I knew my kidnapper I get a ‘oh ok’ response as if it’s suddenly benign.

I think a lot of this reaction has to do with the way I talk about it. Both responses overwhelm me and I want the people I tell to have a decent idea of what I went through.

Recently though, it’s been getting to me more that people can’t relate to me and my experience easily. I don’t know anyone else who’s been kidnapped. And the only depiction I ever see from media

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About me:

Hello! I’m Immolatea and I’m a 20-year-old college student. I’m majoring in Creative Writing (specialties are fiction and poetry) with a minor in Psychology (trauma and psychiatric disorders).

I started questioning my gender in 2013 and identified as non-binary (Demi-girl) until 2016, when I realized I didn’t actually identify with femininity at all. Now I identify as transmasculine / bigender (male & agender) and use he/him pronouns. :)

In my spare time I like to play Overwatch (Mercy main) and Hearthstone, read (fantasy and sci-fi), have long discussions with friends and take care of my son, Ymir (he’s an e

I have Complex PTSD, so I’ve had varying intensity of dissociation since I was a little kid. (Specifically depersonalization, AKA feeling like I don’t exist). I was so numbed out and thought that was how everyone felt, especially when it came to gender. I knew I didn’t feel like a girl at all, but beyond that it was like just before the pins-and-needles feeling when your arm falls asleep.

I realized I wasn’t cis-gender easily, but figuring out what I actually feel is much harder. I knew that I identified with masculinity, but only about 75-85%. The only way I can describe it is that the remainder of my gender just feels like white noise. I ID as male/transmasculine/non-binary for simp

I'm relatively new to the trans community and I'd really like to meet more people. I recently moved to Austin for college (I'm 19) and I'm wondering if there are any local LGBTQ+ groups or organizations I can meet other trans people at.

I'm also interested in making friends with any other trans men (near my age) either online or near Austin.

Thanks!

I'm pre everything. I dress masculine but I don't pass at all.

In the old days, if I wasn't going to be around others, I didn't shave my legs or under my arms. I'd feel gross or guilty if people saw my underarm hair. Once I realized I was trans I stopped shaving my legs and underarms completely. When I'm alone the hair makes me feel very gender euphoric and it feels very normal. However, when I'm around others (even my close friends who I am out to and who support me completely) I feel a lot of shame and don't want anyone seeing my underarms. This is even sillier since literally all three of my closest friends are dfab/cis women who don't shave under their arms. Like, it's ok on anyone exc