jaydak

The past few days have been emotional for me. I had a big health win, and ive been reading reports from the past few yrs to remind me how much ive been through to get here. I've been recalling all kinds of things as I do.

Which led me to this: what the stupidest, most ignorant or audacious thing someone has said to you about your illness?

Here's mine: Sitting at my sister in laws kitchen table, accessing my port to connect an iv medication, just 3 months after discovering the tumors had come back. My sister in law looks at me and says "are you even still considered a cancer patient after 3 years?". Like I needed to just get over it already, stop attention seeling.

On Friday i was officially discharged from oncology. Im no longer a cancer patient. After 12 years and many many hardships, its over. The elation and joy and gratefulness are real.

I had a dream about my parents Sunday night. They both passed before I turned 16. I am 43. It does not happen often. Yesterday all day I kept thinking about how different the last 12 yrs might have been if I'd had parents. Would I have moved home? Would they have been at appointments with me and at hospital stays? How would we be celebrating now? What might that have been like? Would it have been hard for me to watch their pain and concern? So many thots. A big one being how unfair it is i didnt hav

12 years later and its finally over. Finding it hard to believe. I ugly cried on the way out of the hospital, a stranger hugged me. Im on my own in my non home city. But an old friend is taking me out for dinner to celebrate, you all helped me choose a few weeks ago. We are going to Medeival Times!!! Should be fun and silly and memorable.

12 years. 4 surgeries. HIPEC (chemo). 6 organs lost. Half my colon too. Endless complications. BUT

I beat it. Its over.

In 3 weeks I have my very last oncology appointment. 12 years and im finally NED and being discharged. It feels unreal but ENORMOUS and im not sure how to celebrate. Im going to be alone, as the appointment is in a city 5 hrs away. I will have a hotel room. Any suggestions on how to mark it for the big deal it is?

In 3 weeks I have my very last oncology appointment. 12 years and im finally NED and being discharged. It feels unreal but ENORMOUS and im not sure how to celebrate. Im going to be alone, as the appointment is in a city 5 hrs away. I will have a hotel room. Any suggestions on how to mark it for the big deal it is?