jayston69

If anyone knows any good rock jumping spot near corvallis I’d appreciate a tip.

I’m respectful and won’t overpopulate it.

Also I went too Cascadia state park and it was beautiful, for people who might be searching for a nice place.

Thanks

Wondering.

Hey everyone. I want you all to know I am doing fine. This is not a pity party— rather I was hoping people can help me find the best thing to do because I feel responsible for hurting others.

So it all started when I started a new job and I worked with a beautiful woman I had liked since high school. Maybe not ‘liked’ but appreciated her appearance.

We clicked, and people noticed my attention being directed toward her and naturally rumors sprouted. So one day we talk in the parking lot and she says her boyfriend of 5 years were breaking up.

Naturally as any 20 year old horny male would, I accept the change to assert dominance on a broken man.

Also, I’ve never been in a rel

Yay let’s get lost.

Y’all ever get lost with no map then pop out the other side like woah wtf??

Like overthinking.

Overthinking land with no map.

Crazy.

Y’all ever listen to Mac Miller, y’all take drugs to make it up way up where we on space shuttle Elon.

Swimmin circles baby

Anyways just lookin for some harmless banter on the nature of self and these circles we may find ourselves on the course of.

Hi all.

Looking for some advice about something I’ve been noticing in myself.

So I’ve been into spirituality for a year and a half already.

Feel like I’ve gotten significant insight into the human condition from this helpful narrative.

I’ve overcome: suicidal thoughts, feelings of hopelessness, fear, jealousy, pain, shame and a couple more.

Obviously I still feel these to a degree, but they do not hold me hostage as they did before.

This all started as the narrative of ‘me,’ started dissolving upon the realization that my mind is my mind and I am I. And I, indeed, had been confusing the two.

Immediately after this I laughed a bit because it was like a cosmic joke and I felt dumb for a

Need help cos I cannot currently formulate thoughts adequate enough for a lasting impression. So I’ll help myself by typing this.

I’ve been living a lie.

The way I see things has been skewed.

I am watching this show on Netflix, just chilling, and there’s a cutscene where it pans on this wonderful establishment.

Anything a man could dream of.

I couldn’t help but get the impression it was meaningless.

I believe we perceive and mislead ourselves by foreseeing the wealth in our hands.

We perceive it as meaningful because there is a journey toward it. In which we accumulate meaning.

The burden of this personality and journey is immense on our soul one could suppose.

That’s all I got

How can you know the truth if you have not failed to get it?

How could you know anything you haven’t fought to gain?

Why do we try to act like what we will never be?

I believe our fortune is not in our ability to think, rather in our ability to act, and contemplate from here forward.

How could you have a life you haven’t fought to attain?

How could you understand anything outside the confines of your own mind, your own experience?

If you’ve lived past your life, what is the need to be sour, if you can give your children the opportunity you weren’t?

If you have lived past your life, what is the need to be sour, if you still have it left?

Ultimately, I believe our power is not in

What if the only thing you’ve ever wanted was a lie?

When all you wanted was to have, what happens when you get it?

Do you just die?

Or do you morph into a new you?

What are you made of, besides your own longing to be?

Days pass by in a flurry, how much time do we have left?

My days spent in worry, wondering if I’m worthy

Who can affirm my love?

It’s weird from the other side, soon I’ll be back over.

The sun has another rise, the moon lacks closure.

Has my destiny accepted my fate?

Or has my fate declined my destiny?

You decide.

When you have a thought, which is a discontinuity of your “presence” consciousness into some unconscious level, ego, which is a belief system, attempts to “correct” yourself, to fit snugly into your belief system. The thing is, you are not words, you are not the thinker of words, you are your body, your holiness, YOU!!! Ego attempts to correct how you think. You are placing yourself into a box, and judging yourself. How would you feel if someone externally did this to you? The same way you feel when ego does it to you. Be yourself and do not regret it, unless it doesn’t work for you, then drop it, and be present. Sometimes the old way of thinking doesn’t produce fruit, so to speak, and it ne

How do you feel about risk?

How do you feel about acting on the things that scare you, but may bring you great peace?

Your mind attempts to guess what would happen because you won’t subject yourself to risk.

Your mind is preparing for what would happen if you do.

I would say shoot your shot guys.

The sooner you do, the sooner you know the truth.

Tell me what’s the truth, and am I to elude it?

You know as well as I do, what we saw wasn’t illusion.

I’m scared to live.

Well I really want to but I always go back.

I know what is real. I know real is right now and that is the ultimate truth.

I know the reason I got into spirituality was to stop a voice in my head, now that voice has taken over my life.

I know the only times I have ever felt pleasant was when there wasn’t a voice.

When I wanted to live and experience.

Please guys, I am not suicidal.

I do not want to kill myself.

I am expressing how I feel and I want to know how you feel.

I want to live, but I cannot do the holographic version i need it to be real.

How do I get over this?

The first step.

The first step is always to want something better.

If you find a weird sense of pleasure in oblivion, and doing things you dislike, you will need to suffer a bit more before you think of asking.

Once you want to have better, and get over your hump of emotion, then you get up and do what you need, because now you have the awareness to see that is already yours.

You HAVE to be willing to change how you see.

You HAVE to let go of yourself, can you do this?

:)