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That’s come around quickly. Time flies when you aren’t miserable I guess. I cannot believe how far I’ve been dragged up from the depths of hell.

Exactly one year ago today I walked into a rehab - depressed beyond belief, hopeless, terrified and having no idea what I wanted, except one thing, to live a better life. I was a daily drinker, of about 4-5 litres of wine a day. I was dying, and using alcohol to help that along. I was suicidal, alone, obese, in constant pain and couldn’t look people in the eye.

I’m still not sure what caused me to reach out for help. Some deep part of me that was clinging to hope or a rare moment of rationality? I’m not sure, but I’m bloody glad whatever it was

I guess I’m writing this half as a vent, half as a lesson to myself and to whoever can take something away from it.

I’m almost at that coveted year milestone and I’ve achieved so much. I’m working in a well paying, rewarding career which is a far cry I from the casual retail positions I had in addiction. I have a car, I have nice things, amazing friends and family. I always hear from people looking from the outside that I’m doing so well - which I am - but my life is far from stress free.

I’m living with someone also in recovery, who has very recently relapsed. They’ve stolen from me and aren’t going to work - so tomorrow I’m going to have to have some very uncomfortable conversations an

I’ve recently reached the triple digit milestone and thought I would share some musings on my journey so far.

At the start of 2023 my life seemed hopeless to me, I was in debt, barely left the house and my health was incredibly poor due to the drinking. I was 137kg, barely slept and never slept sober, didn’t speak to my friends unless I was lying to try and borrow money and was in the process of burning every bridge I had

Then I decided I could no longer control my own life, and went into detox and a residential rehab. I’m so extremely lucky to live in a country where I could do this for free (Australia) and also incredibly lucky I have no children or outside obligations that I was able t

I think anger is a very powerful emotion that can be harnessed in many different ways. There are dozens of threads currently on reddit about the anger towards McGuire, and how he should stand down and frankly, a lot of talk about very performative actions.

How about as a community we aim for tangible change, and harness the anger to better communities through charity, bettering the lives of Australians rather than talking about how upset we all are at an AFL president.

I implore you if you're disgusted by racism as much as I am and want to help this country mend, and have the money, donate to one of the charities listed below. Feel free to share your donation if you want, but I think we c