i just cant deal with it anymore. i dont have anywhere else to vent, or at least i cant vent to people who might actually understand how i feel, so i thought maybe this could be the place.
being fat is so tiring.
i hate admitting to that because i spend so much time trying to act unbothered about this that it feels weird to even say it but it´s the truth.
i dont like people knowing what gets to me because im always scared theyre gonna use it against me. but its so hard to keep pretending i dont care.
all ive ever wanted my entire life was to be thin. thats literally it. ive had dreams for myself and i still do, but its almost funny how i cant actually picture myself in any of those dre