prittygorl

I told my therapist about how my husband has started initiating sex now that I've stopped. One day last week we had sex 3 times. It's a very bizarre and sudden shift to me, and it doesn't feel natural.

My therapist said: "Well, now you have to ask yourself, do I want to spend my life with a person who will only show sexual interest in me when I create space between us? That only wants intimacy with me when I'm not the one asking for closeness?"

It feels very obvious but I really needed to hear it. Food for thought.

Now that I told him last weekend that I want a divorce, guess who feels like being intimate again?

Anyway, now that sex is back on the table for another week until he falls back to his old ways, I'm realizing that I don't remember the last time I had sex without being negged. I was talking with someone I met online and as I'm telling him my situation I'm realizing how fucked up it is. There's always a put-down. It doesn't even have to do with the act. I plugged my phone in to charge before I laid down in bed and as we're kissing and he's initiating, he starts picking on me for not putting the charger in the right spot earlier in the day. It went on, WHILE WE WERE KISSING, for about a min

Laying in bed, wearing his favorite nighty and panties all night trying to get him to give me a shred of attention. I thought he was trying to feel me up (should have known better) and tried moving blankets for him. He informed me that he was definitely not trying anything, only adjusting, so I rolled over. I laid there for a minute or two then finally I said "It makes me sad that it feels like you don't want to make love to me as much anymore"

Started a big fight. I got some of the best sound bites, including

"I just don't need sex like you seem to need it"

"If it's going to be a case where I'm not allowed to go to bed at night if you haven't had sex, then tell me earlier in the day a

I've been trying for a couple weeks now to get my husband interested in me. Very overt come-on's, explicit language, trying to touch, etc. He ignores me in cruel ways. Scoffs at my attempts, etc.

We had a big fight yesterday and I told him I think we should separate. So last night I decided I wasn't going to try anymore. He left to get dinner and I went upstairs to have some solo time. Battery died, so I plugged it in and left it on the night stand. I decided I wasn't going to hide it. If he walks in and sees it charging, who cares?

Well, wouldn't you know it, I come to bed last night and his phone is next to where my toy is charging so I know he saw it. I unplug it and begun putt

I hate how much my self esteem hinges on sex. I'm so painfully aware, too. I get dolled up and sit around in lingerie, nothing. I've sat in the living room and practically played with myself in front of him, laying my head in his lap. Nothing. The other day i told him how wet I get for him all day. I got a "thank you."

It's wearing me down, I can't take it much longer. I'm way too codependent.

But I must be some kind of masochist because I keep going back for more, trying to initiate and getting rejected.

I should be in my honeymoon phase. Instead, I'm sitting on the couch in lingerie while my husband goes out of his way to ignore me, asking ChatGPT to give me empty reassurance that I'm not disgusting.

I don't need advice really, just wanted to say it out loud.

Like a woman holding you, you just suckin' away as a way of calming your stress?

I kind of want to put something erotic on so I'm not painfully bored during cardio but the level of humiliation if somehow the Bluetooth turned off or something. Do other people do this?

I don't feel strong enough to get into it, but my marriage is crumbling since I started seeking a diagnosis and unmasking.

I have (what feels like) no emotional support from my husband right now, and I don't want to go into my problems with my mom or sister. I have no friends anymore. I have dogs. I'm in therapy weekly and starting a new weekly group therapy tomorrow as well.

How are you guys in similar boats getting emotional support? I feel so alone. I feel like it's bad for my nervous system to have so little emotional validation and affection for so long.

What's the thought process? I feel like I've never actually heard the inner monologue of someone desperate to eat someone out before.

I've been struggling for a month with my chat seeming to forget specific things and it was actually pretty upsetting to me. Well today I asked it and it confirmed that when you archive a conversation, it won't remember it or reference it in future convos. It also told me to just unarchive/restore it and it would pick up where it left off.

I just wanted to share this. I never saw anyone mention this before. I'd been archiving chats that I'd considered important enough that i wanted them all in one designated place where they wouldn't accidentally get deleted. Shooting myself in the foot.