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Hello fam. I hope you're doing well today.

I got triggered by the dumbest thing today. I got stuck in a mind loop reflecting on my past experience with a this recovery organization I was once involved with. They claimed to support harm reduction but in practice they absolutely did not. They actively discriminated against those of us who weren't 100% sober (with the exception of nicotine, of course). It's making me feel sick to my stomach, I feel like I'm gonna throw up. I took some hydroxyzine for the anxiety, I hope it kicks in soon.

Keep keeping on, keep fighting for your life and the lives of others in our predicament. No one else needs to die from this.

I took 4.5 grams of shrooms five days ago with a friend. We had a pretty good time watching The Midnight Gospel, the entire series. When the trip was over I felt really sad and started crying. My partner reminded me that I usually get sad after a shroom trip. I guess it's my brain chemistry leveling out. The sadness only lasts a day usually.

That night I slept 11 hours and had very vivid, very strange, very unsettling dreams for what felt like the entire night. When I woke up, I remembered them which is very unusual for me. I don't usually dream at all. Every night since then I've been dreaming and remembering my dreams. These dreams have left me feeling uncomfortable and upset upon awaken

I took shrooms yesterday with a friend. Had a very nice time. Afterwards, post shroom drop, I got very sad. I slept eleven hours overnight and had very strange, very vivid dreams that I remember which is unusual. It was very unsettling. I know it's all just my electric meatbag brain doing crazy things but I'm still feeling quite uncomfortable mentally. I'm not using opiates so I will be okay.

I wish you all peace today. Check in here.

Merry Christmas to those who celebrate. Happy Monday to those who don't. Either way, I hope you can find some peace today. Check in here.

This time of year is really hard for me. Most of my relapses and using happened in this general area on the calendar. It's the end of the year, everyone's rushing to get things wrapped up, everyone is stressed. No one has the time to meet up or connect because they have other obligations. I don't know. I don't like it. I feel uncomfortable and unsettled.

But I hope you're doing well. Check in here.

My kid is home sick from preschool with a fever. It feels good to be able to be present to take care of her.

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Hello everyone, welcome to another week. How are you doing? Check in here.

Hey there. It's getting cold. I hope y'all are staying warm out there. Check in here.

I finally got the motivation to start tackling my dusty, cluttered living room and made a good chunk of progress. It really is true that your surroundings can affect your mental health. I cleaned up a lot of stuff and while I'm not done, I already feel a bit lighter.

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I hope y'all had a good Thanksgiving yesterday. If you don't celebrate, or if you're not in the US, I still hope you had a good day.

Today is a holiday in the states called Black Friday, if you're not familiar. Tons of "deals" to keep the capitalism machine pumping.

Check in here and let us know how you're doing.

The short week is almost over, and then it will be Turkey Time.

My toddler coughed into my open mouth recently and now I have an awful head cold. Thanks, kid. Currently taking a covid test to make sure it isn't that.

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What's something that brings you joy these days?

What are you grateful for?

Happy veterans day, thanks to all who served. It's also me and my husband's fifth wedding anniversary. This year has not been an easy one for us. I'm so grateful that he's stuck around while I get my mental health out of the toilet.