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I've been so low in the past months, years, whatever, and you lot have really helped keep my spirits up. The banter, the light hearted content, the random cocks everywhere, I love all of you.

My one regret in life has been that I never actually lived in the UK. I've spent time over there but somehow I feel like I should have been born there. It's a certain connection I really can't explain.

I'm grateful to my parents for introducing me to British comedy at a very young age, I feel it's influenced me immensely.

You guys, you have an amazing culture. Even though you may not always realise it when you're in the thick of it, it's better than most.

That's it really. Just, you know, thank

If lucid dreaming is waking up inside a dream and being aware you're dreaming, as well as being able to control that dream. I myself have been experiencing the exact opposite. I will be asleep, dreaming whatever thing it is I dream and then I'll wake up, the dream will be there in the waking world, I just continue the dream story, turn the pillow over or whatever it is I do, go back to sleep and the dream will have persisted. I love this, never had it before. Even if the period of being awake is a bit longer, the dream remains and I can just pick it back up.

Does this sound familiar to any of you or am I even stranger than I thought?

I'm severely depressed. This is a known fact. Also I'm suicidal, nothing new there. A few days ago I was out for a nature hike, and I visited a part of my hometown I'd never seen before. It was, truth be told, a great day. By the end of it a light drizzle started and we made our way back home. I felt things on that day and especially after that day that I never felt before. It was as if I entered some other dimension, some place I've never been to before. Even now when I think back, it feels completely alien to me. What the hell is happening? That day changed me in some way and I can't explain it. It's both good and bad, both positive and negative. Is this depersonalisation? Psychosis? The

It's getting worse and worse. The only reason I'm still here is the fact that the kids are here this week. Once they're gone, and I'll crash into this horrible crippling void of loneliness and depression again, caused by one person and one person alone, it's over. I can't handle it again. I just can't.

I missed the scent of clean and drying laundry. But also I've just now noticed something is going wrong in my kitchen... I hope it hasn't smelled like this over Christmas because Jesus Christ. On a voyage of discovery now to find the culprit..

For us Dutch people it's a holiday tradition. We set up the table with all kinds of tiny delicacies including a variety of mini-meats, french bread, veggies, sauces, you name it, and we have this 'gourmet stel' which is sort of a hot plate in the middle of the table with tiny little pans in which every person can cook whatever they want from the selection of raw things we provided. You can also for instance crack an egg into a pan, bake some mushroom slices, it's a free for all.

Is this something you do?

I used to be heavily into grinding. I was in several grinding crews and I used to help everybody get rich. As a result, I made so much money I never have to grind ever again and I can do whatever I like now.

And as it stands, my favourite pastime is pissing off half a server and then starting a sell mission or anything else that paints a giant bullseye on my back. It's exciting!

I love British crime series. Line of Duty, Gangs of London, Top Boy, Luther, The Fall, Bodyguard, Time... All of these I've seen.

Could you recommend me some of the same caliber I might have missed? I have an itch I really want to scratch...

Edit: I'm getting so many great recommendations here, I don't even know where to start! Thanks people!

There are 48 colours to choose from and many of them are, to me at least, not identifiable. Unfortunately they haven't named them, and I'm looking for the most natural looking shade of red. Does anyone here know of somewhere online where there is a list of names attached to all the numbers?

I know this seems like a silly question but it's one of the many minor inconveniences I run into as a colourblind person... I'm trying to make my female character look as 'normal' as possible.