treeofstrings

Sorry folks, I'm spiraling like I haven't since my diagnosis.

Diagnosed with TNBC on 1/15/26. Since then I've been doing all the things: bone scan, CT, consults with surgery & MO, just had a port placed. My first treatment is scheduled 3/11. My tumor is the size of a tangerine and is very visible through my skin.

It's whiney but these last two years have been brutal. I lost my home of 36 years in a family dispute, moved into a smaller place that needs many repairs, got married and discovered that my husband is a full on alcoholic (he hid it well prior to marriage), lost my brother with whom I was very close unexpectedly this December, my mother has been in poor health these past years and

Up until now this has all been scans and exams and has felt rather surreal. But for some reason I'm really anxious about this step. Could use encouragement and advice from you wonderful folks.

This poem made such an impression on me that I've been looking for it for years. It's about a caged bird and the last line is "she thinks the ceiling is the sky". Can anyone help me?

Sorry for the long post. There's a lot of backstory.

I lived in this house for 36 years. My uncle invited me to live there on a free lease just to keep the place occupied and keep the grass mowed. Also to let him know if any repairs were needed, as the house is 100 years old and it shows.

Over time I took care of all repairs at my own expense including extensive roof repair, electrical issues, replaced water heater twice, replaced the well pump and then paid to have city water installed etc. in gratitude for the free lease. I offered to buy the place many times, and eventually my elderly uncle told me the place would be mine when he passed. I began to make a homestead of the place with fow

I lived in this house for 36 years. My uncle invited me to live there on a free lease just to keep the place occupied and keep the grass mowed. Also to let him know if any repairs were needed, as the house is 100 years old and it shows.

Over time I took care of all repairs at my own expense including extensive roof repair, electrical issues, replaced water heater twice, replaced the well pump and then paid to have city water installed etc. in gratitude for the free lease. I offered to buy the place many times, and eventually my elderly uncle told me the place would be mine when he passed. I began to make a homestead of the place with fowl, veg/ herb gardens etc.

Uncle died several years a