wrongself

[English is not my firt language. Apologies if this is hard to read.]

Sometimes my daydreams become my expectation from the future. Like I dream of myself in a very different job I'm currently in or I used to wanted to be in. This particular job may or may not fit me, it doesn't matter. It's like getting a new hobby even though you didn't spend much time in it or didn't even start to do. But it's about my future and I might make impulsive decisions to get that future. And if I don't achieve that I'll be completely lost because it wasn't what I planned. And I can't give up on it either since I can't stop dreaming about it. I can't even consider other options that might be better or would fit

Usually daydreaming is the best way to escape reality for me. But there are times I feel so terrible that I can't even dream to distract myself from reality. This is one of those times. I can't stop thinking about what happened and what's going to happen. I can't even dream because whenever I try to dream about something it always goes back to something related to reality or reminds me of reality. Reminds me of the terrible situation I'm in and makes me hate myself because it's all my fault. Can't control my emotions, can't control my actions, can't control my thoughts, can't control my dreams. Now I can't even cope. What an idiot. What can I even achieve if I can't cope with anything withou

There is an option inside the game to download replay but it doesn't always save the part I wanted. Is there a way to download the full replay? Trustworthy 3rd party applications/websites are welcomed too.

I know it's a bit of a weird question. But even though you know your dreams are far from reality (whether it's a story or something related to your real-self) do you ever feel like they're real? Like they had happened or they're about to happen.

For example, I had a crush on someone. I dreamed about him also having a crush on me and coming for me. And I literally believed that. And I literally waited for him, I was just %100 sure he was going to reach me somehow. Of course I realised that later on, after seeing him with his new girlfriend. But things like that happens a lot for me.

Edit: Another example. Sometimes I lost in my dreams. If I dream about something connected to real life and