Tried brixadi one week shot and still was using. Wondering if I even got high or was psychological

A little over a month ago I finally gave in to my doctors suggestion that I get to Brixadi shot since it doesn’t send you into precipitated withdrawal upon getting it. I had received the one week shot and continued using business as usual. Long story short I’m asking myself if I even really got high or was it all just an addiction to the process and lifestyle as tomorrow. I finally am seeing him again and I know he’s going to talk me into getting the one month shot which makes me wonder how worth it is it to keep chasing this toxic habit of ours. truthfully, I’m just getting the shot to shut him up and to get the Suboxone prescription. He gives me on top of it to help me “adapt” which I just end up selling, anyone else have experience getting high and or are using well on the shot or trying to?