Have you ever felt like this?🙂

How do I detach from the need to—you see, I have this desire in my heart to know that I am capable of having someone’s eyes on me (having a crush on me) and I can’t seem to get the feeling to go away. I mean I get that God loves me and all but even that statement can’t get rid of the feeling though it always got rid of every other feelings. Every time a dude approaches my two sisters I feel a little jealous and I hate how pathetic I feel for feeling this way but all I want to is a glance from someone special. I try to tell myself I’m fine but sometimes this feeling makes me wanna cry like “why am I always the one to fall in love but never anyone fall for me?” I’m keeping a straight face but it’s killing me. I don’t know if it’s the need to be looked at with love struck eyes or the need to know that I’m worth a man’s attention (now I sound like a wh*re, gosh I hate it). I don’t think my desire to be thick is genuinely out of my need to look good or feel good, it was never my dream to be thick…I wanna be thin and unique in my own way, the whole “be thick” thing came from the desire to gain attention and yeah I have been getting thick but I don’t feel good about it, it’s making feel the need to wear tight things or show my ass which is completely against what I believe, what I want. I don’t know what to feel anymore and I’m so confused! ✨🩷💯

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