Pride, doubt and failure

She was the voice of this world I'm living in! I was the struggle clothing on her soft skin.

I was so quick to fall in love she thought it was lust,

She held me at arms length and length I gained her trust!

The first time she reached out to hold my hand,

I felt like I was the lead singer in a popular band!

The first time I closed my eyes and moved in for the first kiss,

And felt her soft lips open up to fit in mine, I knew life couldn't get better than this!

At first it really hurt to reminisce,

Now the pain comes when I witness my heart's cold indifference to the times she was my bliss.

After some time I could think about her and smile with myself,

I find myself thinking about the first few months when our relationships health

Had the curiosity of a toddler and heavens wealth,

When we had pride on our side and doubts remained in stealth.

Before the bitter end when she could no longer pretend,

When I could no longer convince her, things would get better!

Those are the memories I still don't like to remember,

But I can forget her first heart breaking tear,

I can forget when my bravado turned into fear.

On these things I don't like to linger.

I'm still Proud I took all the blame and never pointed a finger!

I still promise myself if she ever lets me, I'll do better! But I hate that I will always remember us as a failure!