How possible is it

To quit using and still work full time? I cannot miss work. I have to pay rent and catch up on other bills but I've also GOT to get off this shit. It's been daily for about 1.5 months. I feel like I've cut back but I'm still crazy tired. I have no one to fall back on or ask for help. But I'm sick of it, it's not fun anymore. It's destroying my marriage. I missed the last two days due to a stomach bug or something so I'll have to pick up extra shifts on my days off which means seven days straight of working but I desperately want to be off this.

My plan was to take two days off paid right next to my regular two days off so four days total bc that's all I needed last year after about three months of straight use, and I was clean for several months in between.

Am I screwed and have to keep using? Until I'm ready to full stop? Or can I somehow make this work? Open to all ideas and suggestions. Thank you.