I can't find Julian.

Today i dreamed about the world ending.

I saw people going for the "suicide option" instead of trying to live.

I didn't want to die, so i just stayed, watching them killing eachother.

When i woke up, I wondered what it would be like to choose suicide instead of living.

I'm not suicidal, i just think of it once in a while.

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I hope Julian didn't kill himself.

If I learn that he is dead, I would blow my mind.

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I'm not suicidal tho.