Self Improvement Can Be Avoidance

I was always trying to improve myself. That was never the problem.

The problem was using improvement to stay busy so I did not have to deal with what felt uncomfortable.

I focused on habits, goals, and productivity while ignoring frustration, resentment, and exhaustion.

Once I paid attention to what I was avoiding, progress became real instead of performative.

Working harder was never the answer. Paying attention was.

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