Anyone else ever been so bad they had to wear diapers?

I’m using an anonymous account on this, but I’ve found lately that I need protection or I’ll very embarrassingly wet my bed maybe half the time. It’s been happening more and more since I’ve become more severe. The worse the flare, the more risk of waking up in an uncomfortable situation where I can’t get myself out. Either during the night or after falling back asleep in the morning. I live alone. I’m always eventually able to clean myself and my bed up. There’s times I really wish I had a carer. It’s been like this for a year and I just now gave in to wearing diapers again for bed. I’m embarrassed. Is this forever?