Rant - I can’t wait till having kids is impossible for me

I'm honestly super excited that I'm almost 35. My fertility starts plummeting and therefore, I'm even more confident in my birth control. I don't plan on getting sterilized for personal reasons. I'm so tired of hearing references to babies. People I've told I don't want kids still saying "oh you don't want them?" I think they think I'll change my mind. But honestly the thought of it TERRIFIES ME!

I have a mental health disorder that has me way more overwhelmed and need way more rest than most people. I hate it, but I can't imagine adding a kid! I would lose my mind. Keep them in day care as long as possible. Make the same thing for everyone and if They didn't want it to bad don't eat. Lock myself away from them. Basically, I'd be a neglectful parent.

Anyway sorry for the rant, I'm a bit on the irritated side today and i Figured some of y'all could relate.