Huffing gas made my ceiling light the sun, my ceiling fan into a helicpoter, and turned me into broken clay

Just so start off I want to say this is not me recommending anyone to do this. It is stupid dangerous and can cause instant death. I was young and dumb, I was doing inhalents long before I even smoked weed for the first time. It gave me quite a few interesting "trips". I used to soak an old sponge in gasoline and take it to my room in my parents house. It would give out fumes for half an hour and id sit there and keep going till they were gone.

One time I was huffing laying down in bed staring at the ceiling fan. I took a few large huffs and everything got brighter and I got a basic euphoria and dissociation. I took a few more huffs and then waited a few seconds. All of a sudden my ceiling fan turned into a helicopter that then cut the roof of my house off to where I could see the stars because it was night at the time. Then I felt my body turn into a hard clay like substance and break into about 50 or so pieces. Then my broken pieces went down like a 70° slide into nothingness and I came back to after a few seconds of sliding. I don't remember much past that but I do remeber having that specific broken clay sliding feeling on a few occasions

Another time I was huffing sitting in my desk chair. I took a few huffs and felt the basic euphoria, then I took a few more. And when I took these few more I closed my eyes and saw a bunch of light blue silly look creatures flying up my nose from the sponge. Not flying as in they were flying, but they were just getting sucked in. Then I looked up at my ceiling light and saw two or three different shades of yellow curved lines coming from my ceiling light that got wider the further they were from the light. They had stars every 6 inches or so they kept getting bigger and then smaller over and over. I just stared at my light with I think the most euphoria I've ever felt from gasoline. I felt like I was witnessing something great or once in a lifetime. It almost felt similar to the first time doing lsd for me. I felt like I was staring at the sun. I dont know why but thats genuinely what I was thinking at the time.

The third and last time I was in my parents shed huffing. At this point I had graduated from the sponge to inhaling from the bleeder hole in our gas can. I would take about half a lung full from the can and the rest just normal air. One time when I was huffing I was deep into the euphoria and I all of a sudden couldn't recognize anything around me. I looked down at the Jerry can and thought "oh yeah, thats my sisters 8th grade art project" and in my head it looked like a paper mache skull or something similar. This was actually the last time I huffed gas because as I was doing this my mom came out wondering why the shed door wasn't locked and found me fucked up

PLEASE DONT DO WHAT I DID. I only huffed heavily for 3 weeks but I don't even want to know the damage I did. I physically feel mentally slower and less talkative. I often feel like I have nothing to say and don't think about much and I attribute atleast some of it to the Inhalent use. I used quite a few different ones over a 4 year span and it's just not worth it. Smoke weed, do shrooms/ lsd, and drink if you want to. Do the things that are known to not cause immediate damage