hai

What to do if there is no desire either to live or to die. because there is no point in doing either. Yes, i have things that bring me joy and things that upset me. I go out with friends because it seems necessary, as if life would not change without them. I can still live. there are things that i am good at and things that i am not. I cannot contribute much to the world or if i can, what is the point? There are always such people and one less, one more - nothing changes. I have no attachment to my relatives, because they do not appreciate me, and consider me just a unit of the family structure, not trying to learn about my desires. I take my place in this system and have to fulfill my role. I do not want to be convenient for someone, but i am such and cannot behave differently. I can find common ground with absolutely everyone and make friends, get to know them and support their hobbies. yet not once in my life, nobody was genuinely interested in me. I study well and can learn absolutely any profession, but there is literally no attraction to anything. I like dancing, but my health does not allow me. I cannot do sports actively either. I can learn to do absolutely anything, but there is no motivation for me. I have never fallen in love with a person in my life. There is something that attracts me in appearance, behavior and actions, but the desire to relate to anyone in particular has never been there.

I don't know if anyone has had this condition, most likely yes. I don't know if anyone will read this, but I just want to tell it. Let it lie dead in the world.

Maybe these are typical problems and I'm exaggerating?