Can't find the perfect pen

Hi guys, I've been passionate about pens for a while now, but I need some advice because I'm not satisfied with any of the ones I own.

The pens I own: Pilot Acroball Ballpoint - 0.7 mm, Uniball Zento 0.5, Zebra Sarasa Clip 0.5, Zebra Blen 0.38, Pentel Calme 0.5, Uniball Jetstream Lite Touch Ink 0.5.

Pilot: Too smooth and the ink smudges the paper and my hand.

Uniball Zento: Too light, no control.

Zebra Sarasa Clip: I like the fact that it's not super smooth, so I can feel the control. What I don't like, however, is that the release button doesn't stay locked when using it and makes noise when writing, and the pen feels too cheap.

Pentel Calme: I bought it hoping to be happy with it, but I really don't like it. I don't like the pen's button mechanism; it's uncomfortable to click, and the position is visually annoying. But the worst thing is the ink; it's gray and faded; I've never seen such an unpleasant ink.

Uniball Jetstream Lite Touch Ink: Same thing as the Zento; it's too smooth, lacks control, and the grip is uncomfortable; it's not rough enough and can tire your hand.

Zebra Blen: Perhaps the one I liked the most; I found control with this pen, but at the same time, the right smoothness. The two things I didn't really like, however, were the clip; it makes noisy micro-movements when writing; it's not properly sealed, and that noise drives me crazy. And the other negative thing is that the ink literally ran out in three weeks—absurd.

I'm a very picky person; I don't know if I'll ever find the perfect pen for me. That's why I'm asking those of you who know more.

What I want is a pen with a good grip and a smooth glide, but the most important thing for me is control. I need to be able to guide the pen; it shouldn't slip on the paper. I want a pen that doesn't creak when I write; it needs to be solidly built.

Regarding the ink, I don't know anything about the different types; what I'd like is an ink that lasts as long as possible, is uniform, and doesn't stain my hands—that's the most annoying thing of all (and it shouldn't be gray..). As for the size, I wouldn't want to go beyond 0.5mm because my handwriting is very messy.

These are the features I'm looking for, but since I live in a country that doesn't offer a wide range of international models, the only marketplace I've been able to purchase from is AliExpress, so I'm looking for a pen that's available there, along with the appropriate inks.

Thanks in advance.