please tell me how you perceive me! any typology welcome :)

This is my description:

I can be either focused on all over the place, I have millions of ideas every second but I can stick to one and guard it like my life depends on it. My thinking is abstract, very logical. I am not a person guided by emotion. I am very guarded and often regret when I reveal too much about myself but simultaneously I like the attention.

My main motivation is being the best there is, to stand out and have some kind of impact over things and people. I crave knowledge and I can play the devil’s advocate as I see all the sides of the argument and seldom take a direct stand on something, but when I do I do not budge and even if I know I’m wrong, I don’t admit it if it doesn’t mean my relationship with someone will hurt.

I hate weakness and vulnerability, I never cry and never reveal all parts of myself. I don’t let myself depend on other people and I hate when people see me when I’m bad. My main emotion is disgust.

With people, I like a challenge. I like to befriend people who are a challenge to befriend and get close to. When I give my loyalty, it’s unshakable. But you have to earn it. I don’t like commitment and but I try to keep my promises.

In love, I love with my whole self and give my whole heart out. I can be obsessive but I give the person a lot and motivate them to be the best version of themselves. Nothing makes me more happy than people taking my advice or push and thriving.

I am a very prominent figure in the crowd, I stand out with my looks and behaviour. I am charismatic despite being quite an anxious and overthinking person. I stand out even when I don’t want to. My humour is varied but it’s usually dry and sarcastic, often sexual when I’m comfortable.

It’s hard to get really close to me, I keep myself guarded despite coming off as a very open and welcoming person. I give comfort and advice and help other even if we’re not close but I also see this as a way to make people indebted and dependent on me, despite genuinely liking helping people and caring for them.

I see people as sit as a chess game, I am a good manipulator. I am a chaotic neutral, my morals can be either very low and strong, depending on the situation. I am a hopeless romantic deep inside, inside my soft side I guard well.

I value my friendships and I want the connections to be deep. I like to help people, I like to give them gifts and genuine compliments. I like to make people happy. I want them to thrive and be the best version of themselves.

I don’t really understand social cues and don’t read people that well. I can be direct but also, can be indirect. I am good at small talk. i appreciate someone I can be silent with the most.

Despite me seeing people as characters in a story, I want genuine, strong and deep connection so badly. I am lonely inside. I want to be loved and others describe me as someone who cannot not be liked. I hide a lot of things about myself.

I usually forgive but not forget. I am very protective and hate injustice and discrimination, I often protect someone I don’t care about just because they’re treated unfairly. I can fight and my wit and thinking is quick and sharp, I am great at discussions.

Please tell me if you need to know something more to type me :)