am i an alcoholic?

I started drinking a lot more 5 months ago. At first it was just for fun spring break shenanigans, then every weekend, then almost every night. I am underage and still in high school but I would wake up looking horrible and hungover or even still drunk. I fell behind in a class I never normally would’ve, just everything went down hill.

backstory I have a bad life, abusive dad+stepmom, dead mom, dad + mom+ grandma on both sides + grandpa on both sides all used to be alcoholics blah blah heard it before

So really I promise i know how alcohol affects peoples lives, relationships everything.

I stopped drinking for a month this summer because i got mono, i should’ve waited longer to start drinking again because mono effects your liver, but i didn’t because i needed alcohol.

Now im back in school as of recently and im trying to strictly only drink on weekends, but it’s so hard to suppress my cravings and needs for alcohol. Im trying to smoke more to make me not drink as much, which i know isn’t the best idea but smoking weed is better than drinking in my situation.

I think about alcohol every day, every hour. I asked my friend if the same thing happened for her and she says no?

I’ve gone to homeless downtown and asked them to buy me stuff. i don’t do that anymore unless im with a boy.

I’m not a crazy drunk, like i don’t yell at people or fight, i just cry or dance. I don’t know if i’m an alcoholic but i understand i have a problem.