March13

after this day. we never got solid sleep together anymore. we spent all the time just tossing and turning throughout the night. I came to the realization at some point. it just wasnt comfortable the way it had been previously. things needed to be addressed acknowledged. i just couldnt figure out for so long why we couldnt get relaxed the way we usually did.

the positions were all the same and the room . your bed. nothing changed except that gnawing feeling that now was there with us.

thats why I tried to leave after . it was a mess that couldnt be fixed with apologies . you asked me to stay but instead you should have told me the things you really had on your mind that day. id rather you have said everything no matter how harsh it may have sounded. I wouldve handled it better than youd think . I probably wouldve agreed with whatever came out of your mouth about me.

I wish you threw out my belongings from your car and left me in that parking lot.