Ill end it if I don’t get through w my last hope next week

If I don’t get what I NEED next week I’ll hang myself wo hesitation cuz it’s not worth staying tf here being trapped and waiting for shit I’ll never fuking get man. Tired of every fuking bs and feeling hopeless man so there’s a 99% chance I’ll do this shit cuz what if I don’t get wtf I need. This might be my LAST post.