Rant:

Time check 10:59, December 10, 2025

Ranting here because the rant is about my friend/s codenames: -rio(bff)

I have nothing against them, this is purely because of my own insecurities and trust issues.

The day before this, December 9, 2025, rio and I had a misunderstanding I guess. “I guess” because I don’t know what happened and how it happened. I walked into our classroom, low energy like usual, then rio is also not talking to me so my energy hasn’t adjusted yet. Rio asked questions about a lab equipment because they forgot theirs in their house. I answered normally, nothing much going on, until I shrugged. Rio stopped talking and turned around to face away from me, at first I thought nothing of it until she did not talk at me at all. I checked my phone and saw rio’s notes in messenger, and I quote “dunno, probably expected too much again,” which surprised me. Is it because of me? My lack of energy got her thinking of what?? I don’t know because they won’t tell me.

Throughout the whole day, we did not talk, not even once, and by talk I mean long conversations. Even when we’re outside buying supplies

This really… I don’t know, I couldn’t care less at that time because I was exhausted thinking about what I did wrong the whole day.

This is really exhausting… for me as a mentally unstable person. It’s like having a gf/bf… mentally exhausting

So today, Rio said they owe me an apology and an explanation which is I’m excited to read but nothing came. Okay, maybe they’re not feeling it or whatever. But damn, ts is stressing me so bad, I don’t wanna talk to rio tomorrow or until we don’t talk about this issue/problem.

That said, we haven’t been talking much today so I was worried, my other friends also have plans which I know nothing about so it’s… worrying for me…my insecurities and trust issues shot up through the roof. UGH so frustrating, I felt… sad, upset, and whatever

Idk man, I’m just so insecure it’s not even funny haha lolz