Remindings of my failure as a male 21M
My college classes got back and I Just saw my ex crush who rejected me with my former colleague from last semester.
Last semester I never ever saw both interacting with each other, they didnt even know each other, suddenly days Ago she posted in the story both together.
I cant understand Man, How they got close? What happened? What was it so easy and natural? Why something like this never happens to me?
I am honestly baffled, no one even talks to me and I am honestly very unsure If I ever gonna find a girlfriend, I might stay virgin forever.
Posted Mar 1, 2023, 1:25 AM UTC
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I personally feel like it's a win that it happened that way, I would assume it'd hurt a lot more had you seen them get closer to each other. Best thing to do now is try and move on from the hurt. Just because she didn't end up with you doesn't mean you'll never find someone. The more you focus on them and what should have been the more it will hurt and you'll find yourself not able to move forward.
But when you never feel the touch of a woman, you Will never function properly, I am miserable missing out on teenage and now early adulthood love, there is something extremely wrong about my development and I even Wonder If I Will commit suicide anytime in the future.
I have never been there, but a lot of us have looked down the road that goes there. There are a lot of other places worth going to - even if you go without a woman.
When I was 22, I knew that touching a woman's body would be awesome although I had never done it. (And, I assure you, IT IS!) But, when I was honest with myself, I knew that what I REALLY wanted was to be touching our minds and hearts.
When I was 22, I knew that touching a woman's body would be awesome although I had never done it. (And, I assure you, IT IS!) But, when I was honest with myself, I knew that what I REALLY wanted was to be touching our minds and hearts.
Yes, the emotional connection is what most drives me, I want someone who approaches me, is engaged and interested in know me better, who are willing to make sacrifices or cry for me, who worries about me.
I dont think that I ever in my life found someone who constantly worries about me and see me as someone very special.
You're willing to go that far because you haven't had sex and you're afraid a woman doesn't want to touch you?
Yes, I dont have a social life and I am Very unsure If I gonna get in the future.
At least I still have two more options, either from someone I found nice in an autistic group with ocasional encounters (she even asked about me in the online group) or from the philosophy course I might be the listener so I can meet more people with the same interests as me.