Nobody is prepared for what I have to say. I face disintegration.
I have a therapist and family. They expect a recovery from mental illness, and I don't know what to say. I have nobody to talk to because the scripts are all bad. I'm supposed to have really bad problems, and this assumption makes my life even harder than it already was. I recently saw the last line of defense fail irrevocably. I am off the road. I shouldn't have had schizophrenia ten years ago. It was a bad idea. We shouldn't have blown up the World Trade Center. It was a bad idea. I know the game, I know the show, and I am not connected. Now I am here, exhausting my last lifeline. Here on the internet, a medium that was supposed to be an excuse for offstage communications.
No flip, no cap, no tragedy. Final security is compromised, and I have no support.
What now? What can I say, and who do I talk to?
Posted Jul 18, 2023, 10:24 PM UTC
Default authority roles are not supported by their expected support resources. You will attempt to respond, and you will disappear. I do not know what agencies or organizations should and should not be referenced. Everyone around me is the enemy, but I have surpassed default egotism drivers and expected emotional modes. The physical environment is basically dreaming, so you cannot reliably observe me or other people in the real world. Bullet demolition is malfunctioning.
I have been conditioned to believe my error is psychological and invisible, so this therapy website is my default outlet. Please direct me to the appropriate handler.