Confusing experience tantra and psychedelics

Maithuna is supposed to be a type of sadhana for spiritual attainments, although alcohol could be used during the rite, I assume psychedelics will alter your consciousness so much that you won't be able to conduct the sadhana. Talking from experience.

I recommend you find a guru who can guide you in tantra and he will probably tell you not to take psychedelics or drink alcohol.

Thank you so much for telling me more of the story, that makes it so much clearer. The fact that you are experienced with LCD makes a big difference too.

That practice is similar to an exercise called Latihan. In Latihan, people are blindfolded and then invited to follow their intuition 100% while music is playing. Everyone is taught about boundaries and how no means no beforehand and because everyone is blindfolded everything moves slowly. I've not done it in any other way but sober. As someone who has done medicine work, and experienced acid, that had to be an intense experience as even sober it's impressive.

Without being there I would add that it sounds like this person also brought up the energy of a container, which forms a small christ body if you will (like a micro version of the experience of God on Acid we see as everyone being an incarnation of God in different timespace moment lineages if you understand). On Acid the connective consciousness, and psychic channels, would have been opened and possibly amplified. Writing doesn't really touch on it but I hope this helps you understand.

When you left, you were recentering within your own manifest body vs. a collective consciousness experiencing oneness together in an intimate way. I would spend a little time exploring tantra, yoga and meditation sober for a while as a way to ground this advanced experience.

I hope that helps, I could help more in a conversation on such a topic (multidimensional expressions through tantra, medicine, meditation and such are really limited by text only communication of such things as you probably know).

BTW how do I get an invite? I'd love to see this party, it sounds like some things I've gone to myself and always love meeting new people ;) (just by the description I am sure it's nowhere near the midwest where I live, lol).

She then encouraged a sort of trancendental experience, a dissolution of boundaries of self, and so on. During the experience people were touching me, at some point a man seemed to have been on top of me, making out with me and pressing himself against me. Nothing bad happened persay but internally my mind felt like it dissolved and I was very confused and disoriented when it was over.

Oh dear...
This sounds like extreme red flags to me...
To be honest, I am not super familiar to new age tantra.
(It's often very different than actual tantra)
And I'm sorry, I am generally very bad with writing out what I actually mean to say,
But your description makes me very worried, so I'll still give it a try:
Honey...
This situation sounds like a free ticket to sexual trauma. 😰
And as far as I understand from your description it has definitely been causing some serious amount of damage.
Please allow yourself all the healing that you need to recover from this, no need for any doubts on that, ever.
It's good that you're taking it seriously and actively investigate what these disturbing feelings are, because a lot of people would dismiss it because of doubting themselves.
Please follow your instincts!
It seems clear that your body and psyche got very disturbed by it, so no matter how much the other people might've been pretending that it would be normal, your experiences are legitimate and very clear, so please don't doubt yourself! <3
That being said I'll try to be a bit more specific:
"dissolution of boundaries of self" in a sexual setting with strangers sounds extremely unhealthy!!
Honestly this sounds like fucked up manipulation,
whether the guides were deliberately aware of this, might've been perpetuating their own sexual trauma, or were genuinely oblivious to basic human (sexual) psychology.
But for real. It's exactly this type of shit why I am always very weary of modern "tantra", as it is very often a breeding ground for sexual predators using spiritual language to manipulate people into ignoring their healthy sexual boundaries. 🤬
And WHEN SOMEONE IGNORES THEIR GENUINE BOUNDARIES, no matter if it's because someone is too sweet and not assertive enough against the pressure or charisma of the other person or because of some supposed spiritual goal, ONE WILL DEFINITELY GENUINELY GET DAMAGED AND TRAUMATIZED.
No matter what any so-called spiritual person would try to convince you.
(This is ofcourse very different from when you genuinely become comfortable with something and allow it because your boundaries have genuinely changed. Then ofcourse it would not damage and may become an exciting pleasurable thing. But as long as your boundaries are actually still at a certain point, you and anyone in the world are supposed to respect them if you want to remain healthy. No matter what you or others would try to convince you, if the boundary is there it will have its consequences when it's crossed)
Your exact experiences afterwards sound very similar to the experiences that many people have explained to me about their reactions after being manipulated into sex.
Even if you didn't had any penetration by the way. Intimate boundaries are personal, no matter how the standards of others would be. They are something only you can find out exactly where they are for you.
Let me explain it from this perspective:
Even in BDSM personal boundaries are the foundation of everything.
Literally everything!
That's the key difference between actual BDSM (which intends to remain healthy) and plain sexual abuse!
Even though a sub would submit to their dom, in reality the sub is the one in absolute control and only allowes to undergo that which still falls within their hard limits. If a Dom crosses the hard limits it's sexual abuse.
This is the difference where healthy BDSM actually creates a deep trusting bond and a deep sense of self confidence, whereas those pretentious fuckboy "doms" that don't understand boundaries merely cause sexual psychological damage.
In this way even with consent-to-nonconsent the sub is in full control and only allows it because in reality anything would still be within their boundaries.
(In theory ofcourse, in reality unfortunately subs are quite sometimes not fully aware of their own genuine boundaries and sometimes unconsciously perpetuate their old (sexual) traumas. So both subs and Doms always need to be extremely careful to where the genuine boundaries would actually be if they intend genuine healthy BDSM)
So for instance for myself as a sub "dissolution of boundaries (of self)" is something I absolutely love, subspace can be a deeply spiritual experience to me, but only because whenever I'd notice I've reached my hard limits I know I will act them out. So I know my safety is always assured.
This is why people are always very explicitly encouraged to stay true to their own boundaries and to not hesitate to communicate them clearly at any healthy BDSM event. Especially with new people that don't have established dynamics with one another.
So in terms of kink community the approach they had is an absolute red flag! ⛳
Especially at a party with people on drugs.
In general they shouldn't have allowed people on drugs participating their "tantric" practice, and especially not if it was their first time.
Honestly the whole thing is either extremely fucking irresponsible or straight-out fucked up sexual manipulation.
(the latter unfortunately happens way too often in "tantra", whether fully conscious or because the predators are completely deluding themselves with their "spiritual" ego 😔)

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Oh, yeah. I misunderstood your original post. That's at least better than I imagined, thank goodness. I would still say that set, setting, and intention is still important.

I really feel for you. I’m sorry you had to go through this. Now that some time has passed, has your perception of the event changed at all? I’ve been hearing a lot of negative anecdotes from friends who are younger than I am about burningman organizer types who turn out to be manipulative, terrible human beings. I feel fortunate I’ve never had any bad experiences like this on psychs. I am not exactly one to follow something blindly which can be both good and bad, but I wonder if that is a characteristic you could cultivate in yourself, possibly with the help of some people here. I don’t mean to sound condescending. I just want you to have great empowering experiences, and, although I wouldn’t recommend mixing tantra and psychedelics (if either one is good you don’t need the other at the same time if you’re able to be in the moment), I’m not sure either is the root cause of the experience you had to endure. I think if you could find a way to cultivate what I’m talking about you could turn this unfortunate event just to something extremely positive that will serve you jn good stead on your subsequent explorations.

Sorry but it really is about being high. I did read your post in full. You described what they had you do. A blindfolded mediation while on acid? What's more with strangers in a strange place in a meditation and needful mental state and meditation progression you had zero familiarity. That sounds like a bad idea for a person who's high. You know that setting, safe (known) people, comfort are pretty important. I've had some amazing and even revealing spiritual experiences on psychedelics but I wouldn't for my life participate in some stranger's guided meditation I had no familiarity with whilst as high as a kite because it seems like a really good opportunity to turn a good thing into a bad trip, I wouldn't go to church either. I would very much doubt it has anything to do with combining tantra (specifically) and acid.