life is always a situation

i feel like i’m really just living in pinnoccio, i’m 25 and in the last few months i’ve found a girlfriend, did a lot of modeling and i’ve gotten good enough at painting to be in a gallery tonight with only a year of painting experience, but i’ve been working for my dad at a small granite shop for 7 years. the economy is so bad in canada, we’ve only managed to stay open because it’s a cash business and we beat out anyone else. we have enough work to stay busy every day but only make enough money to get groceries and the bare minimum. we’re at the point of working 7 days a week to survive, for the first time we’re still behind on rent and the month is coming to a close, and it’s like we try to go half legitiment and come tax season everything goes to shit, i make less money every year. and i pulled a glute or something a few weeks ago so i can hardly walk or sit, i stumble around at work and go home broke. i’ve never been behind on my house’s bills and everything else, i don’t let my new girlfriend know how bad it really is, she’s just incredible and we haven’t had so much as a disagreement in the 4 months we’ve been together. in the process i became a real artist, a starving artist. i’ve been holding off on taking advil and whatnot but i’ve gotta just take a few and try not to limp at the opening tonight, was going to drink for the pain but i have to explain the details in my work, try to sell prints ah