Confused With Process

I started a journey on figuring out what is wrong with me since June of this year, and since then I have had 3 people tell me my anxiety is a trauma response, along with my constant tardiness, lack of focus and organization. I'm on the threshold for the Wender Utah at 46, and another test had me on the threshold at 14, don't remember the name, but the immediate idea was to push the fact it was my trauma and the ACE test score at an 8 is a supporting factor.

So it's me. I'm the problem. I brought it up at my physiatrist appointment and was told the medication I am receiving is a band aid. As soon as I work out my trauma, I'll be healed guys. I want to explode. Why am I picking up this new prescription? Why am I still working on this, if I'm the problem?

Not to mention the Concerta 18 mg gave me brain fog and Focalin 10 mg gave me tachycardia, I just got a prescription for Focalin XR 10 mg, but yeah it didn't work 100%, but the idea of trying something new was not brought up. I want to give up. If I'm such a problem, why am I trying. I have not once even been given a proper indication that I even have a diagnosis, but I'm somehow getting ADHD medication. Make it make sense.