Be brutal so I can learn my lesson

Me [32F] known an expat [45M - not married, but has 1 kid] in my country earlier this year. I was attracted to him and made it known and clear that my intention to date is to marry. Due to his work nature (working at oil-rig platform), it allows us to only meet once a month. Fast forward we decided to have a short vacation together for 3 days, that is when I figured that he only sees me as his friend/companion with ''benefits''. It was great he paid everything, but then I just feel there is no emotional connection between us and he's not being romantic at all (not holding hands, even when we went for a walk at the beach, he would kept distance like 50m away from me). After the vacation, I then began to realize that we are technically do not know each other much, he would update me about his routine etc, but I feel something is missing. When he went back to his home-country, I was somehow getting emotional as I began to see that he does not actually plan to have any future with me. He hold me onto him, just because I am the only person that he knows in my country and someone that can bring him around for coffee/dinner. It is also noticeable that he will only want to see me just for a night/two once he reached onshore then he will be off somewhere-else. I then decided to cut him off completely. (but his defense was I'm always complicate things, and should have just go with the flow)

Fast forward 3 months later, I was not happy with my current work situation, and reached out to him if he has a business that requires a staff to manage (throughout our so-called relationship, he has always been wanting to do a business and/or want me to manage it). He then said he has one and would like me take charge. He also said that he did this out of sympathy as he knew how I hate my job. We had a video call few days later to discuss about this new job. He then mentioned about he has been liking me from the start, but he thinks I'm way too stubborn. He convinced me to resign the job and work for him, which I did. My final day will be this week, and guess what, he is missing in action since last Friday, not responding to any of messages nor calls.

Critize me badly so I feel hurt and will learn a hard lesson.