I don’t know how to feel about myself rn

I just got done my third Calculus 1 midterm in my Freshman Year (my professor does four midterms and a final) and I feel like a dumbass and a failure.

I haven’t been doing great in my exams before this but I came in with low expectations and actually started out hot, it felt like I knew what I was doing a bit! But unfortunately for me when I got in I was a good bit late for the start of the exam, and so I had less time.

And while I was starting hot, I was second guessing myself a good bit on where to start and deliberated way too much.

I could have EASILY eeked out a B or even an A or something but because of me taking so long to get there and taking so long for some questions even though I did them? I ended up with a fucking 38. I know it, I know I got a 38. And I feel fucking horrible, because I KNOW I could’ve gotten a 70 on the low end if I even had 20 more fucking minutes! But there were no extensions on that day unfortunately.

So long story short, I might have to retake this course next semester unfortunately because my dumb ass came in late… unless I can really clutch up on this last midterm and then the final which replaces my lowest exam grade if it helps me out.