Feeling very fucked up by upbringing

I feel like I’ve developed very maladaptive responses from my Asian upbringing. Things like getting criticised for small mistakes especially when starting out, parents’ first response to issues being to assign blame instead of solving problems and the whole trying to vicariously live through their children.

I’m just realising now that I’m super avoidant of making mistakes and afraid to try new things. I’ve started my job a month ago and every time I make any mistake my immediate response is to catastrophise and go omg everyone is gonna think I’m incompetent.

Not to mention that they still think that they are the absolute authorities in whatever they’re talking about and give completely inappropriate advice on things they know nothing about. I don’t think I’ve received useful advice since leaving high school from them, but they still get mad when I don’t listen to their completely worthless advice.

Being an only child, this is kind of an environment where I actually have nobody to ask advice from, and it feels incredibly isolating.