Maddest I’ve been in a while

This garbage caused me not to have the confidence to speak to my crush. I was so nervous and hopeless that I told my friend who was a wingman for me to stop wasting his time on getting us to have a conversation. Now our other friend, who actually speaks to her is trying to attempt something, while "wingman" and another friend are shouting iso (isolation) because he's apparently her type. I don't even want to even bother touching myself because it just reminds me of this horrific predicament I put myself in.