My Story? (idk)

When I was about 11 or 12, depending on how old I was at the time, I looked it up because I genuinely thought it wasn't a real thing, and it was just memes. I saw my first video and was scared of what I was seeing.

It did nothing to keep me away however.

I'm now 18, about to go into college, so for about 6-7 years I've been stuck with this endless cycle I've just now seemed to break by going cold turkey about...3-4 days since this is being typed. I didn't think it was that bad until it ended a 6 month relationship I had with my partner, and caused me to become hypersexual (if this is how it's triggered). I'm going off to college soon, and just wish I never got curious when I was younger.

And, I'm a female, so every part of me thinks that it can't possibly happen to females because it's more of a "Male Thing", at least that's what society told me. I think joining this reddit could help. I hope.